Eminem - Haley's Song

sometimes i think i'm crazy
i'm crazy, oh so crazy
why am i here? am i just wasting my time?

Haven't had much time to think about some of my personal problems lately because i've been busy dodging bullets. I got my report back and (as always) my parents are not too impressed by the results. "Why are your marks so crap?", "See, your teachers say to revise more", "How come everyone else spends soo much time doing homework" "blah", "blah", "blah"

After 2 days of non-stop why's i finally have peace again (not that i've heard a single thing they've said anyway). Which means i now have time to contemplate the infinite number of other problems in my life. In effect, it's out of the proverbial frying pan and into the proverbial volcano. And to make matters worse, my friends are also going through some shit that i invariably listen to.

Listening to their problems seem to make me think more about mine and it's maddening. Some people find enlightment through insanity, but i'm just not one of those people. And i can't just ignore them and turn them away because then i start to feel guilty (not as morally broke as i'd like to be) and there's yet another problem for me to deal with.

I'd like to give in to the madness and let it all fall apart... but there are too many things holding me back. I can see the sunset over the horizon but my wings are clipped...

damn reality!

today's top 5: incorrect proverbs

1. "life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get". We all know what we're going to get from life; namely hell on earth. Life is not like a box of chocolates unless you're allergic to cocoa.
2. "all work and no play makes jack a dull boy". It may make Jack a dull boy, but it also makes Jack a very rich boy. As we all know, money is power and nothing is more fun or exciting than having power.
3. "curiousity killed the cat". Gravity and the dog killed the cat. Curiousity killed the nuclear physicist
4. "the pen is mightier than the sword". The pen is in no way mightier than the sword. The writer and his/her words are mightier than the sword. But the nuclear bomb is still mightier than the pen.
5. "everybody is special". Of course you're unique...just like everyone else...